overwhelming love

i wanna thank u everyday for always being with me
i wanna give u infinite kisses
u are a tender sweet love
one i took for granted and didnt recognize and appreciate till i almost lost u
i wanna thank u for being with me every minute of everyday my heart grows fonder
ur beyond special
beyond words can describe
maybe someday i can utter how much u really mean to me
with ur names inked in my skin
ur love runs a course threw me and in me
unbelieveable is this love that i have
overwhelming is this love that we have
i love every second of everyday
i love ur hugs that side smile ur scent
sometimes i cant confess just how much i feel for u
an undying love
forever yours
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isolation....

so lately ive been so isolated from everyone...
i just felt the need to remove myself from being around the net so much
and around people that i knew for a bit
to just mostly focus on myself and my kids and hubby
and i must admit that i really like the result of it
im less stressed out
more driven to do wat i have to do
so if u feel the need that i am ignoring u dont feel bad
its just me
time to grow up and wat not
soonn my oldest school will be done and he will have sucessfully passed
trying to read to him more cuz he is having troubles with letters
hopefully one of my kids becomes a book worm!! just like i was ah id love that
so thats about it
nothing else has gone on....
maybe ill update soon or write a poem we will c
xoxo

funfilled weekend....

so in hopes i get to see my parents tomorrow
to hug em hold em and be spoiled
i missed em even tho i kept a severe distance from em
due to the selfishness of my brother
he just uses and abuses em and i refuse to sit by
and see them get used like if it was nothing
now they finally realized why i was so mad
why i refused to be apart of the madness
but i couldnt keep myself from wanting them near me
now its like all the missing pieces of my puzzle are finally
put into its place and i am content

last nite was the best i dont remember anything but none the less
i wouldnt have traded it for any other day
my bestie bookers is the bombs !
my baby mimi makes my world complete
and my hubby just simply amazing my venom!
so now i am off to finish cooking even tho i aint in the mood to cook
but let this final thought mirinate in ur thoughts

dont judge and u wont be judged!

the clouds have cleared....

theres no window u can peak threw to see all that ive gone threw
because ive blocked the windows with cement
now theres nothing left to do but close the chapters of my past
place em on a book shelf and move it right along
some people need to do the same exact thing
why because holding on to the past just makes u bitter
weak
cold hearted
etc....
and now that the clouds have cleared
and my mind is straight
i feel like i got the upper hand to be a better person than i ever was
better than what i was raised as
better then the pain that devoured my soul for years
from all the mental physical emotional and verbal abuse
so now that the clouds are clear i see the sun shinning
with a beautiful rainbow
i sit and smile pretty
because i know
nothing can ever bring me down

so amazing...

& when everything was dark u came to shine a light
so amazing that u captivated my sight
ur one in a million beyond ur years
i will give u my heart with no hesitation nor fears
amazing is thy beyond the stars
ill give u plenty of kisses and heal those past scars
i wanna shower u with unlimited devotion
take u on a journey have u flowing like the ocean
so amazing is thy
amazing in my eyes