love fades...

each day ur words seep into my veins and soul like poison
making my soul tormented
making this heart cold and lonely
i try to surpass them
but they constantly beat me down
and this constant abuse makes no sense
i stay
yet half of me is already gone
as u continue with the words
i continue to leave yet u dont notice
one day i will be gone
completely gone for good
with all my bags backed
no looking back
there wont be no rooms for im sorry
there wont be no rooms for making it all
its all too late
the damage is permanent
and done
when love fades
theres nothing but a broken heart left
to mend and fix
to repair and let someone else come in and take what u took for granted
when all is said and then ill be the one better off
and youll be the one left with regrets
when love fades
theres nothing left to do but shut that door throw away the key
and move on to a new chapter in this book called life

how to feel at the end of all this

i sit here and think of all the things said to me
and all i can do is sit and ponder of the things that will come at the end of it all
the loneliness that will consume me once the wheels of that plane take off
with ur name embedded in my skin
a constant reminder of a love so deep
cherished with every part of my being
its easier said then done
at the end of the day all i can do is sit and cry
scars from your words
scars from the pain
what will i do once your gone
what will happen to my heart once your not in my presence
will i still be a reminder
with my name on you forever
will you be able to look into your daughters eyes and not think of me
or look at your sons smile and not think of me
will u be able to look in the mirror and know you hurt me like this
hot to feel at the end of this
i just dont know
i cant fathom the thought of my days without u in em
i cant fathom sleeping without ur scent on my sheets
i cant fathom the day your gone
no longer by my side everyday being my foundation and my rock
what will i do when my sanity loses control
so many questions that cross my mind yet im afraid to ask
afraid to tell u that everything i feel is real
that all i want to do is grow old with u
that i just wish u would accept me 100% and not partially
what will become of this
ten years
eleven years
can u look back and not hurt as much as u
and just smile
appreciate the little things
appreciate my heart love and devotion
constant
never withering
hot to feel at the end of this
only time will tell
but just know this one simple thing
ill be forever on your skin as u are on mine
love always ....

at the end

everything felt so utterly perfect

ur fingers entwined with mines

your lips so soft upon mine

that little sparkle in your eyes when u gazed at me

now

at the end

ur nolonger holding my hand

ur lips dont touch mine

the sparkle is simply gone

at the end

everything feels horrible

tears overwhelm this face

so empty

i look at my hands and think

how great we were

once upon a time…

at the end

end of story

no happily ever after

no good byes

just shattered images of one another

the hopes and dreams faded

at the end

there was nothing…