how to feel at the end of all this

i sit here and think of all the things said to me
and all i can do is sit and ponder of the things that will come at the end of it all
the loneliness that will consume me once the wheels of that plane take off
with ur name embedded in my skin
a constant reminder of a love so deep
cherished with every part of my being
its easier said then done
at the end of the day all i can do is sit and cry
scars from your words
scars from the pain
what will i do once your gone
what will happen to my heart once your not in my presence
will i still be a reminder
with my name on you forever
will you be able to look into your daughters eyes and not think of me
or look at your sons smile and not think of me
will u be able to look in the mirror and know you hurt me like this
hot to feel at the end of this
i just dont know
i cant fathom the thought of my days without u in em
i cant fathom sleeping without ur scent on my sheets
i cant fathom the day your gone
no longer by my side everyday being my foundation and my rock
what will i do when my sanity loses control
so many questions that cross my mind yet im afraid to ask
afraid to tell u that everything i feel is real
that all i want to do is grow old with u
that i just wish u would accept me 100% and not partially
what will become of this
ten years
eleven years
can u look back and not hurt as much as u
and just smile
appreciate the little things
appreciate my heart love and devotion
constant
never withering
hot to feel at the end of this
only time will tell
but just know this one simple thing
ill be forever on your skin as u are on mine
love always ....