batches of poems

i wouldve stayed
u threw the blame on me

treated our love like a game

i had to prepare myself for this fall

thought we couldve conquered it all

but i failed to see the lies

the deception

now all thats left for me to do is cry

gotta let go and simply say good bye

got so many questions

yet u wont answer why

i wasnt perfect yet no more chances were given

i wanted to be ur sweetest sin

and weather this storm

but now im standing here without u

had to say good bye

had to let myself cry

i wouldve stayed if u begged

i wouldve stayed if u wouldve accepted me

wouldve stayed for love

baby i miss u

dont want to love u

hate that i like u

i wouldve stayed….


too many times before
too many times before

i changed who i was for the one who loved me

yet i stood there alone silently hurting

because it just wasnt me

just wasnt meant to be

too many times before i let go of something good

for something even better

and i ended up alone and hurting

too many times before i let go of the bad and held on to it

never wanting it to end

never wanting to let it go

too many times before i cried alone in the dark

silently hurting silently praying

too many times before i gave up too soon

no regrets just wonders of what couldve been

too many times before

but we all live learn and grow

too many times before

and yet im still standing



not right now
u want me to change

not right now

u want me to be different

not right now

i cant change who i am inside

not right now

i am simply me

take it or leave it

u want me to change

sigh

not right now

u want me to be different

not right now

u want me to be affectionate

not right now

just not right now

or maybe ur just not the one i choose not to do it with….

just not right now