the yoyo effect

life is like a yoyo
we have many downs
lots of ups
lots of tangles
and tons of dangling just there
i sometimes feel like that
that our love is like a yoyo
thats sometimes uncontrollable because i dont know if its going to stay down or its going to come back up..
good analogy i think...

so we managed to surpass our bump in the road thanks to my therapist.
she is helping in more ways then she can imagine.
she knows what to say to snap me out of my daze and my inner world that i seem to be stuck in ...
i dont like many people enter into my world
so it was not that hard to open up because i do seek help and love to talk when im not being pressured. when im pressured i seem to shut down like a car overheating.
idk why but just the thought of expressing myself to someone THAT close to me scares the shit outta me .
im sitting here waiting to get picked up for a night out yes i know shocking i havent been out in forever so i can use it ...
im so nervous tho.!
extrememly and beyond compression!
sigh
okay so let me enjoy my night out and hopefully ill come back with a huge grin on my face i so deserve this xo