thinking....

i sometimes wonder why the bad things always have to happen to me
like why us
does it even matter anymore
to continue
to even bother to try to be happy
when no matter where i turn there's a brick wall in my wall
im smashing into it
im clawing trying to reach over it
yet to no avail i cant seem to conquer this wall
sitting here with so many thoughts running threw my head
i wonder if maybe if i wouldve done things differently
taken that path on the right instead of the left
but then would i have later regret it
everything in life is a choice
then later u think and regret
wonder what if
does everyone feel this way?
i can only wonder
this sucks