spinning...

she loves me...
she loves me not....
she wants me...
she wants me not....
sometimes i feel caught up in her web of lies and deceit
how did i get myself involved again
i have to get myself out of this before i go insane
slipping into this pool of tears
this sick hold and power she has over my heart
now i must be strong and break free
what doesnt work now wont ever work ever
i have to learn that the hard way
everything gets thrown in my face
they say im tripping
they say im insane
they say why bother when u have a wonderful man
they are all right
but i cant help the way that i feel
ive been this way for so many years
hard to change the roots of a tree when its been in growing like this for so many years
yet im removing the roots that dont work
that are severely damaged
ive woken up
realized no one can love me the way my kids and my husband can love me
but ill be forever apart of her ....