dear venom...

why must we continute to go into these same circles....
why cant u c that i am trying to be a better person and women for ur sake
ive done alot of changes
was it not enough for u
why must ur words hurt me like a knife piercing my soul
why does ur love cause me to feel like theres venom in my veins
i want to scream and shout and tell u that u mean the world to me
yet u make me shut down
u make me feel like im not good enough at times
i know im broken
im damaged
intolerable
but im human
u vowed to love me forever in front of god
yet i feel like that love doesnt exist anymore in ur heart
i feel like im a burden
a thing u must take care of like a stray kitten
why must love hurt yet feel so good
do u love to make me feel this way
i cant cry
i cant sit here and tell u that i just want u around
i dont need luxury
fancy things or money to make me happy
all i need and ever wanted was just u
all of u
none of the rest of the bullshit from the past that seems to be lingering over ur head
dear venom
why must i love u so....