a wish...

i sometimes wish my life was different
that i aint have to feel so empty inside
that i aint have such deep seeded issues
that i aint have to cry every nite i sleep
i sometimes wish i was normal
what is normal anyway
i wish i aint hurt
i wish i wasnt born
i sometimes wish the waves would wash away this thing i feel
things thing i cant comprehend
nor explain in details
because words are empty
words are mere dust in the wind
i sometimes wish my life was different
that i could wake up smiling
instead of crying
i wish i would be a better person
inside and out
instead my pass has jaded me forever
trusting no one
loving no one not even myself
sometimes...
a wish...