trapped cell of emotions

wheres my super hero with his glowing cape
wheres he at when im in this emotional cell of torture
tears overwhelming every part of me
my soul crying and searching for a release
i wonder why me
putting myself in this emotional hole that has no light
missing the sounds of the sounds of the wind the feel of the sun
this tug of war inside of myself that i always seem to keep losing
shattered heart never mended
sick of all the blood stained walls
trapped in a cell of emotions
lingering within me like a tortured soul
when will it be enough
when can i just escape
lies of love love of lies
i cannot take this anymore
maybe i deserve all this
maybe i dont
till then what am i supposed to do
sit here and cry and swallow these pills
talk to walls that just wont talk back
a hug would be nice
a kiss would be nice
an i love u forever no matter what would be nice
nothing
in this trapped cell of emotions
i hear nothing
notice nothing
walls are closing in on me
wish i can claw myself out
dig myself out
trapped
maybe forever
maybe just for now
......
to be continues